As most everyone (at least people who check Misc. regularly), I've made a huge fool of myself in the past. And even though I'm better now, I still continue to fall into certain similar patterns. All of my attempts at humor fall flat. My self-deprecation and pretending to be thick-skulled don't make others smile. And a thread I've made doesn't usually draw the intended reaction from people.
No matter what I do, it always feels like I'm the laughingstock. Whenever I joke around, people... don't take it as I want. I just never get the reaction I want out of anyone. Sometimes, people miss the point of my friends to brutally mock me.
I've tried plenty of self-deprecation and making light of my SJW phase. Recently, I tried it again. Everyone laughed, but not at the joke - at me. And it hurts. I just can't seem to escape the leftover mockery from my previous mistakes.
I just want to improve myself so this community will accept me. I want to post things that make people smile., I don't want to be mocked at every turn, my threads abused and turned against me.
I want to erase the mistakes of my past.
Has anyone gone through something similar before? Can anyone relate to this? How do I fix my mistakes from a time when I understood less, even if that time was two hours ago? Because sometimes I forget the lessons of my past and make a mistake.
Will this ever change?